Pronouns

Owen is at that great age where he is trying to figure out pronouns. One of my favorites is when kids substitute "my" for "I" and he is smack-dab in the middle of it! I can't help but smile when he says "look at what my is doing" or "look what my did." He amazes me everyday with the new things he is saying. In fact, when he woke up from his nap this afternoon Tony was downstairs working out, and he of course had to go down too. Usually when we work out we have the iPod playing, but since he had been sleeping Tony was using his ear-buds instead. He noticed right away that there wasn't any music and asked where it was. As Tony walked over to plug it in he said "Oh dear" :) I'm not even sure where he has heard that phrase! I really should start writing everything down.....

Negative Cycle Follow-up Appt

We met with the Dr last week for our Negative Cycle Follow-up Appt. We reviewed my cycle in total. He talked about my meds for stimulation, (which have already been reviewed on here) talked about how many mature eggs I had (5), what my fertilization rate was (4/5=80% when they look for at least 70%) and his "grade" on my transfer by the lab (1-highest level)...all of these things were reviewed to look at whether any of them could have been the reason behind the failed cycle. The Dr's thoughts were that they weren't...which meant that the only thing left would have been genetics. Because genetics were believed to be the reason for the fail, the Dr suggested three different options for our final cycle:

1-do things exactly the same (which he did not recommend)

2. alter my med protocol (raising me to the highest level to get more eggs)

3. Egg donation

Nothing against anyone who has done or considered egg donation, but Tony and I don't think this is an option for us. For one reason, it is expensive and another is that we already have Owen and while we want another baby, I'm just not sure that I want to go that route in order to have one. So that leaves us with option 2-upping my protocol. We are planning on doing the cycle in April/May. Appts will begin on April 30th...so meds will start a few weeks before. I did ask the Dr about switching back to Luveris instead of Menopur-he was fine with that. We also asked about taking supplements....while he isn't the strongest believer in them, he was fine with us taking them again for our cycle. All he wanted to know was what we planned on taking....easy enough. So we met with the nurse, got signed up for the cycle and told her what we planned on taking supplement-wise.

So...we plan on starting the supplements around Feb 1st and going forward with this final cycle....at least I'll know that we tried everything we could:)

Snow and Sledding

We had quite a bit of snow last week....and Owen loved it! He played outside in the morning at my mom's house and cried when she brought him in....and he did the same thing to me in the afternoon. We went out and shoveled a little and pulled his sled up and down the street. I finally had to carry him in kicking and screaming with cold fingers and nose! This weekend, we headed over to one of the favorite sledding places in town. At first he was mad that the sled was going in the car, but once we got there he loved it! In fact...we again had to carry him crying and cold back to the car because he refused to walk himself:)

Here are a few pics of our snow time!

Helping mommy shovel the driveway since daddy had a meeting after work.

His first trip down the hill with daddy. Look at that smile!

The easiest way for daddy to make it back up the hill:)

He went down a few times by himself...of course over to the side down a smaller part of the hill:) He loved riding on his tummy!

Results

As I expected, it was a negative.....

Peace

I was originally going to title this post "indifference" but as I was sitting and watching Owen tonight, I decided to change it to "peace." I didn't really think I was feeling much about the outcome of this cycle and I was calling it indifference.....but really I am at peace. I have a pretty good feeling that it will be negative. I guess with the quality of the embryos at the time of transfer, I'm not expecting a positive call on Tuesday....and I'm okay with that. Owen is more than I ever thought that I would have at one point in my life and if he is the only child that I will ever have, it is okay with me....so that is why I changed the title to peace. Of course, if it is a positive call I will be overjoyed and excited:) I guess only time will tell...but I feel peace with whatever the outcome may be.