Thursday, June 17, 2010
Hardest thing.....so far
So I just officially let my baby cry himself to sleep.....and it was the hardest thing I've ever done! He hasn't been the best napper, but he usually falls asleep when I nurse him (I know--can't believe I'm still doing it with how everything started!!) or when he gets a bottle. Lately though, he has been fighting his sleepy times. Usually he nurses for a few good minutes and is almost asleep and then starts "bucking around" and then refuses to latch back on.....and I'm not shoving my boob in there with his new tooth!! I usually try to hold him and rock him or walk him around after that, but it was a no go. So today I just decided to lay him down in bed, he was obviously tired, turned on the music and walked out. He didn't start crying until the music turned off--it is one of those ones attached to the crib so it only plays for a certain amount of time and then turns off. I decided I would wait 10 minutes and then go check on him....it was a long 10 minutes, but when I looked in his room he was up on his side just about asleep, although he was still crying. So I stood and watched him with my heart breaking each time he would start crying again. I finally decided to walk away and give him a few more minutes and if he wasn't asleep I would go and rescue him. Needless to say when I went to check on him again, he was asleep. He had rolled over onto his belly and was resting peacefully...I leaned down and gave him a few kisses and told him I was sorry:( Hopefully he forgives me when he wakes up!