So I realize that when you have a baby, there are certain things that happen to your body that you have no control over. Dr. B told me that with my hard delivery and the aftermath, that it could take up to a year for me to feel "normal" again! I have to say that I was a little scared when she said that, but I'm beginning to wonder if it might be true. Things are definitely better, but still not quite back to normal:) I mean it has been almost 7 months....wow, there was a time when I thought that I wouldn't be able to say that I had a 7 month old baby!
One other thing that has taken its time in returning is full bladder control....yeah, kind of embarrassing at times but what can you do about it! I mean I did my kegel exercises daily while I was pregnant and even continue to do them now, but things just aren't back yet:) It's not like I go around peeing myself all the time, although there was a time shortly after delivery that I wondered if I would be! I seem to have issues when I am working out, especially doing anything with jumping! Last night Tony and I headed downstairs for a workout after he got home and our routine last night included jumping rope and doing box jumps (jumping up onto a higher surface). Lets just say that after we were done, I needed to change:( Very sad and embarrassing for me, but luckily Tony doesn't say anything--probably wouldn't even know if I didn't tell him--but all I do is laugh about it as it is happening. One positive thing is that I now do not have to get up in the middle of the night to pee anymore--which is wonderful! With all the meds I was on for IVF and then the pregnancy itself, I had been getting up at least 1 time a night for what seemed like forever. Well now I am proud to say for the last couple of months I can sleep the whole night, and then I am amazed at how much it can hold when there isn't an 8 1/2 pound baby sitting on top of it:)
I know "normal" is a relative term and I definitely feel good about myself and how I have recovered. Plus I wouldn't take anything back because now I have my perfect little boy:)